It snuck up on me.<\/p>\n
On Sunday, I glanced at my calendar for the coming week, and was surprised to see that my father's birthday would be on Tuesday. Somehow I hadn't quite gotten around to noticing that it was coming up.<\/p>\n
It's been three and a half years<\/a>. He would have been 69 today.<\/p>\n And my mother<\/a> died 28 years ago today. Which means I'm almost as old as Peter was the day she died.<\/p>\n I've been pretty swamped the past couple days--spent all day Sunday doing magazine stuff, then around 8 p.m. switched over to day-job stuff (I missed a deadline last week) and worked on that 'til 1 a.m. or something. Didn't get started on day job 'til noonish on Monday, but stayed 'til, what, 11:30 p.m.? Something like that. Still not done with deadline, but inching ever closer.<\/p>\n Anyway, so I'm kind of exhausted and out of it, and not really up to dealing with much of anything.<\/p>\n Sometimes, these days, a week or two will go by without my even thinking of Peter or Marcy. I wasn't expecting this particular anniversary to hit me especially hard. (Though I've been thinking about Peter lately. I've pretty much abandoned that blog where I was posting stuff about him; at some point I'd like to go back to that.) But it took me by surprise again a few minutes ago. Though that's probably at least partly the exhaustion talking.<\/p>\n This entry isn't coming out at all the way I wanted it to. Not sure what it was I was trying to say, but this isn't it. But I'm gonna post it anyway.<\/p>\n . . . I originally ended this entry here, about an hour ago, with a final line saying that it was time I went to sleep. And it was. But I decided to run through a scale on the Ocarina iPhone app as I prepared for bed, and I accidentally happened across a few notes of \"Suo Gan<\/a>,\" and one thing led to another, and I ended up creating and posting a score<\/a> for that tune on the Ocarina score forum. It turns out that it's extremely easy to convert ABC-format tunes into Ocarina-format scores. So now I've converted a very pretty and easy-to-play lullabye and played it to myself a few times through to make sure it was right, and I'm now in a better, or at least less sad, mood than I was earlier.<\/p>\n But am now even sleepier than I was an hour ago. (Funny how that works.) I've got to stop staying up past 2 a.m.<\/p>\n Anyway, I'm much too sleepy to rewrite this entry from scratch, but I figured it would be too weird to post it as-was without clarifying that I'm not as mopey as I was earlier. So here's a sort of muddled compromise that at least probably gives an accurate rendition of my muddled state of mind.<\/p>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It snuck up on me. On Sunday, I glanced at my calendar for the coming week, and was surprised to…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11630","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-death","category-music"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11630","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11630"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11630\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11630"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11630"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11630"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}