I've been kinda off-kilter lately. Weird mood swings--cheerful and happy, then suddenly grumpy and stressed for no clear reason. Having a hard time focusing on anything; not being very productive; procrastinating and filling up time with timewasting activities. (More so than usual, I mean.) Feeling disconnected from friends, despite having an unusual amount of contact with (some) friends and family lately. Sunshine and good food and conversation help, and then I sit down to get stuff done and can't seem to do it. Regularly staying up much too late (I'm doing it again right now); getting plenty of sleep for once, but that means I'm waking up way too late and getting to work ridiculously late, which makes it harder to have a full productive day.<\/p>\n
(Also continuing to have a wide variety of annoying computer-related problems. I suspect I could solve many of them by closing most of my open browser windows, but there are so many more important-seeming things that I should be doing that I keep neglecting to address that.)<\/p>\n
It's possible that part of the problem is that the anniversary of my father's death is only a couple weeks from now. That doesn't feel<\/em> like it's related--but a lot of the emotional stuff around that has taken me by surprise in the past; it seems to bypass any part of my mind that I have conscious access to. So maybe that's part of it. Also maybe partly just winter blahs, which haven't been a problem in recent years but used to be.<\/p>\n