Things with me have been a little weird lately.<\/p>\r\n
I guess the main thing is that I\u2019m having even stronger avoidance reactions than usual. It seems to me to be pretty clearly an anxiety thing, but most of the time I\u2019m not experiencing it as the usual consciously evident fear\/anxiety (though there\u2019s been some of that too); it\u2019s just been very hard to get myself to do the things on my to-do list, both at work and outside of work. That especially applies to responding to email and other messages\u2014that\u2019s always been one of my biggest points of anxiety, but I\u2019ve had an especially hard time with it lately.<\/p>\r\n
(No advice, please.)<\/p>\r\n
I\u2019ve also been having more than usual of one of my few Lexapro side effects: earworms. Most people get songs stuck in their heads now and then, but ever since I started on Lexapro, it happens to me more often than it used to, and for a longer period at a time, and more annoyingly. Usually it\u2019s one or two lines of a song, over and over and over and over and over and over, for hours. My doctor asked me recently how often this happens, and I said every week or two, but I don\u2019t know why I said that; it\u2019s usually more like every day or two. And lately it\u2019s sometimes been multiple times a day. Last night, I had a long complicated dream that was mostly focused on trying to look up the lyrics to one of the songs that I can\u2019t get out of my head.<\/p>\r\n
I am making some<\/em> progress on things, both at work and outside of work. Nearly done with the ebook of Mary Anne\u2019s cookbook, and approaching done with the first Constellation Press book. I had hoped to have the latter out before the end of the year, but it looks like it\u2019ll be early 2020. But soon. (The text is nearly final, the cover is finished and gorgeous, I\u2019ve done trial runs of creating the ebook and it looks good.) And I\u2019m continuing to slowly approach other authors and estates about reprinting their work too. But all of my progress on all of these things has been much slower than would be ideal.<\/p>\r\n Have also been doing some sysadmin stuff for the SLF\u2014helping transfer their email over to G Suite, mostly. Have learned a fair bit about SPF DNS records (an anti-spam measure), with help from various people, and have also set up an SPF record for kith.org, which may reduce the likelihood of Gmail marking mail from me as spam.<\/p>\r\n I closed about 200 tabs in my browser on my home computer over the past week. Unfortunately I still have about 70 open (and many more in other browsers and in iOS), but it was nice to make some progress on that.<\/p>\r\n