Today is the fifteenth anniversary of my father\u2019s murder.<\/p>\r\n
(For anyone who doesn\u2019t know what happened and wants to know, here\u2019s the writeup<\/a> that I posted in 2006, on the first anniversary. Content warning for a fairly detailed discussion of his murder, and a brief discussion of his SO Nancy\u2019s suicidal depression.)<\/p>\r\n (\u2026Something that I fret about sometimes: I imagine that most people, when they hear about a woman killing her male SO, assume that the man was abusive or otherwise at fault. I think that my writeup makes pretty clear that that wasn\u2019t what was going on in this case; but just in case anyone skips reading my writeup, I want to say clearly that my father was not at fault here.)<\/p>\r\n I\u2019ve been very mood-swingy this week. Perfectly fine, even cheerful, at times; sad and tense to the point of tears at other times. (US and world events have contributed to the sadness and tension, of course, along with stress about overdue work stuff. And listening to sad songs.)<\/p>\r\n I\u2019m at FOGcon<\/a> this weekend, where Mary Anne<\/a> is a guest of honor. (It\u2019s also launch weekend for her Sri Lankan cookbook, A Feast of Serendib<\/a><\/cite>!) But last night after attending the convention\u2019s brief opening ceremonies, I sequestered myself in our room. I made some labels for things I brought for today\u2019s gadget-and-toy petting zoo, and I read Facebook, and I read some of Naked Lunch<\/cite> (I\u2019m about halfway through that). I wasn\u2019t overtly distressed, but wasn\u2019t doing well enough to interact with people.<\/p>\r\n Which may continue to be true today, dunno. I\u2019ll definitely do the petting zoo, and I\u2019ll probably attend the con lunch, but I may spend the rest of the day hiding in the hotel room. We\u2019ll see. Food has often been helping with mood, so I\u2019ll hold off on any decisions until after breakfast.<\/p>\r\n (I may also take a nap\u2014woke up early after not quite enough sleep, couldn\u2019t get back to sleep.)<\/p>\r\n Hugs and sympathies to family and to Peter\u2019s friends. I hope you\u2019re all holding up okay.<\/p>\r\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,118],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18445","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-death","category-parents-children"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18445","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18445"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18445\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18452,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18445\/revisions\/18452"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18445"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18445"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18445"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}