{"id":3734,"date":"2006-11-23T17:00:28","date_gmt":"2006-11-24T01:00:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.kith.org\/journals\/jed\/2006\/11\/23\/3734.html"},"modified":"2006-11-23T17:00:28","modified_gmt":"2006-11-24T01:00:28","slug":"mood-swings-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/2006\/11\/23\/mood-swings-1\/","title":{"rendered":"Mood swings"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Had various invitations to Thanksgiving dinner for today, but although they were tempting, I ended up declining all of them.  For a variety of reasons, but the main one was that I'd decided that this weekend I was going to make significant progress on various projects at home, most especially dealing with my father's books.  (Also magazine stuff, like editing; also trying to catch up on various email and journal activity; also submitting a story of my own; also a host of other assorted projects.)<\/p>\n<p>And I knew that if I spent today socializing, then it would be easy to spend the rest of the weekend socializing, and Sunday night would roll around and I would've once again failed to get anything useful done, and I would be stressed.<\/p>\n<p>So I decided to forgo most of this weekend's social activity in favor of staying home and being productive.  We'll see how it goes.<\/p>\n<p>On Monday a colleague innocently asked what I was doing for Thanksgiving, and I told her I was going to stay home and deal with my father's books, and mentioned something about the smoke damage, and she asked why smoke damage, and I realized that she didn't know about the whole mess.  So rather than tell the story, I pointed her to my <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kith.org\/journals\/jed\/2006\/03\/07\/3428.html\">summary journal entry<\/a>, but also mentioned that there was more in my journal's <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kith.org\/journals\/jed\/personal\/death\/\">\"Death\" category archives<\/a>, which made me realize that there were a bunch of entries about Peter that I hadn't tagged with category names.  So I went and tagged them, which involved re-reading a bunch of them, which got me all mopey and sad.<\/p>\n<p>Kam came over that night and we watched <cite>Howl's Moving Castle<\/cite>, which was mostly just about the right fluffiness level for my mood.  I thought the movie was just as odd as the book, but I think I liked it slightly more--it contained about 80% of the characters and incidents in the book, kind of thrown together in a blender with some of Miyazaki's usual obsessions (flying; clouds, smoke, and steam; war; environmental impact; the effect on outward form of inward feelings and actions; etc).  There were some delightful moments, and plenty of just weird ones.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, so I've spent much of the past couple days alternating between happy-and-cheerful and glum-and-maudlin.  On the downside, been missing various distant friends quite a bit.  On the upside, been listening to good music, reading good books, spending time with cool people, and even making progress on my spam-fighting project.<\/p>\n<p>And then there are mixes of those things--the other night, in the midst of working on dealing with spam issues for echoschildren.org and hwaet.org, \"<a href=\"http:\/\/www.echoschildren.org\/CDlyrics\/WINDCHG.HTML\">When the Wind Changes<\/a>\" came up in my iTunes rotation:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<div class=\"stanza\">\n<p>When the wind changes we still feel the breaks;<\/p>\n<p>The hurt that was dozing rolls over and wakes...<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>And so on.  I couldn't cope with listening to the rest of it right then, though I still love the song.<\/p>\n<p>Today so far I'm alternating between dealing with domain\/website\/email issues (have sorta kinda finally learned what MX and A records are, in the process of breaking and then (I hope) fixing echoschildren.org and hwaet.org) and unpacking book boxes.  I was thinking of stopping by various people's places to say hi and chat, though not to stay for dinner, but that's not gonna happen; it would require leaving the house.<\/p>\n<p>Fortunately, dealing with the books themselves is still not especially emotionally difficult.  As long as I don't think too much about it.<\/p>\n<p>I know today's the day when one's supposed to post about all the things they're thankful for, but I think I'm not up to that either right now.  Instead, I'll close with the last verse of \"When the Wind Changes\":<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<div class=\"stanza\">\n<p>First fruits of harvest are sweet in my mouth.<\/p>\n<p>We've love; we have laughter; the wind's in the south;<\/p>\n<p>But sorrow is waiting, by autumn concealed,<\/p>\n<p>As rain makes uneasy a bone long since healed.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Had various invitations to Thanksgiving dinner for today, but although they were tempting, I ended up declining all of them&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3734","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life-updates"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3734","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3734"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3734\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3734"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3734"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kith.org\/jed\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3734"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}