Calming down
Have been panicky and tense for the last few days; there was a lot I was supposed to get done over the weekend but didn't (much of it stuff that various people were waiting for me to do), so I decided to do it Monday night, and then what with the flat tire and one thing and another, by the time I sat down to work on Monday night I was in too bad a mood to be able to concentrate on anything.
But Tuesday morning I paid a bunch of bills and dealt with various important papers (most of which were due 2/15 or 2/16, so it was just in time) and confirmed that my financial situation isn't as bad as I had feared it might be, and Tuesday evening I turned off the phone and IM and mostly didn't check email and plowed through a bunch of the reading I needed to do. More of same this morning and this evening, and though I've still got a lot to do, I'm not quite as panicked about it as I've been, which is why I'm allowing myself a few minutes for a journal entry.
Spent some time early this afternoon working (on the computer) outside (I usually work at home on Wednesdays); the sunshine was really nice. (Um, apologies to those of you still in winter; that's not meant to be smug.) And I've been listening to various bits of cheering-Jed-up music. And eating chicken tikka masala. And it all helps briefly, and then I get stressed again. No fun.
On the plus side, I made substantial progress on my Zeppelin story over the weekend. And I've got a three-day weekend coming up, which should give me a little more time to either get more caught up or go sit in the redwoods or at the beach or just in a park and relax a little. We'll see.
