Never give up
I've been kinda off-kilter lately. Weird mood swings--cheerful and happy, then suddenly grumpy and stressed for no clear reason. Having a hard time focusing on anything; not being very productive; procrastinating and filling up time with timewasting activities. (More so than usual, I mean.) Feeling disconnected from friends, despite having an unusual amount of contact with (some) friends and family lately. Sunshine and good food and conversation help, and then I sit down to get stuff done and can't seem to do it. Regularly staying up much too late (I'm doing it again right now); getting plenty of sleep for once, but that means I'm waking up way too late and getting to work ridiculously late, which makes it harder to have a full productive day.
(Also continuing to have a wide variety of annoying computer-related problems. I suspect I could solve many of them by closing most of my open browser windows, but there are so many more important-seeming things that I should be doing that I keep neglecting to address that.)
It's possible that part of the problem is that the anniversary of my father's death is only a couple weeks from now. That doesn't feel like it's related--but a lot of the emotional stuff around that has taken me by surprise in the past; it seems to bypass any part of my mind that I have conscious access to. So maybe that's part of it. Also maybe partly just winter blahs, which haven't been a problem in recent years but used to be.
At any rate, feeling a little better at the moment because Shaggy's "Hope" just came on iTunes:
[...] And kept her eyes on the stars when the skies were gray,
Gave us drive to survive, really showed us the way.
Now I really understood what she was tryin' to say:
She said, "Son there'll be times when the tides are high
And the boat may be rocky; you can cry,
Just never give up.
You can never give up."
Catchy tune.
And on that note, I think I'll go sleep.
